New Year, Better Me: The Road To Miss New York

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Last time we chatted I was preparing for a local Miss America Competition. Since then, I placed as the second runner up (again) and I wasn’t unhappy or happy. It left me in a self-fulfilling prophecy mindset.

For new readers/consumers of my content a big theme I discuss is my body image, confidence, and overall feelings about how this impacts my life.

As I stated last night on a phone call. I am capable, I am very talented and well-rounded. But until I have the look, and until I lose weight, I won’t see success. The last 3 years have shown me this. I can put myself out there, but that won’t get me anywhere.

The reason this “stresses” me out is because beyond pageants I am entering the mid-twenties and weight loss has been a struggle for me since I started consistently in 2018. But we will discuss that more in New Year, Better Me: Weight loss and What’s working.

So, back to pageants.

I was going to take the year off, lose weight, train for the first time, get a vocal/acting coach for other primary reasons, and “upgrade” myself. Which I am not completely abandoning. It’s still a great plan.

HOWEVER

I decided to put myself out there one last time during this year of self-love and leaving my past 3 years behind me. We won’t know the results by the time I am writing this blog post, but I am okay with whatever outcome.

If I am fortunate to be selected for the job of a local titleholder, I will continue to promote my platform of Literacy for All. I will work until my duties are released and who knows, there is not a guarantee how pageantry plays out. An opportunity to compete at state, means you have a chance to represent your state at Miss America.

But a crown is just a crown, the impact and platform mean more to me. Today on my channel my “Pageant Plan” where I share what I would like to do before I turn 29 will be up. And Miss America has had some changes.

The age limit is now up to 28, Fitness is back (in lieu of swim), and other little tweaks and changes. I am open to all of it, but the pressure I felt from the original pre 2.0 Miss America and the MUO is also back, I still have hopes for both, but can I lose the weight? I hope to hit my first goal of 150 around the time of Miss New York this year so we will see.

I am hopeful, and I am excited.

Maybe I will see the Miss New York stage, but I have found peace if I don’t.

I have other plans for this year as I have refocused my goals. I am hoping for an update, but if the Miss New York stage is not my journey this year, then the next “Road To Miss…” is where we will pick up. Here’s to a year of self-love, abundance, and growth.

All thoughts in this article do not reflect the views or beliefs of any organizations mentioned. All thoughts and beliefs are solely my own.